It has been almost a year that I have been on this writing journey. I remember when I first embraced the idea that God had called me to write and how nervous and unsure I was. Although people, primarily my husband and my mom, had been telling me about my writing for years I refused to accept what they were saying. One reason is because I honestly did not feel that I had a passion for writing and I was really unsure of myself. When I decided to go ahead and launch out into the deep I had many doubts. I wondered whether or not I would be able to gain followers. I would ask myself if I were “educated” enough to write. Would I be able to make a difference in anyone’s life? All of these were things I asked myself and honestly I still do. I almost allowed these fears and questions cause me to back out of doing what I truly believe in my heart that God wants and needs me to do.
Now here I am 8 months later, grateful that I started the journey but still dealing with the same fears. Honestly, I am still not sure if I can answer those questions that I asked myself last year. When I post it is always amazing to read what others have taken away from what I have written. I don’t know if people realize it but my writing comes from a place of vulnerability. It comes from a place of realness and a place of passion. A place which was once very broken but is now being healed more and more each day. My writing really does come from my heart which is what I desire for people to see.
Sometimes I get discouraged when I do not get the amount of readers or followers that I hoped for. Sometimes I question my decision to even take the risk. However, even in the midst of my insecurities something inside of me keeps pushing me to continue. Something keeps motivating me to not give up and to remember that I am worthy of the call God has given me. I am worthy of the talent that I was graciously given without my asking. I am worthy of the gift that I sometimes fail to appreciate. When I think about giving up I have to remember that I am more than a conqueror and that the present is not my end result. I must remind myself that although the numbers may be low today tomorrow still leaves room for increase.
I am worthy to accomplish my dreams even when it takes longer than I desire. I am worthy to call myself what I know that I am even when I do not feel like it. Those days I fail to complete the mission I set for the day I am still worthy. I am worthy even when others do not see my worth. Regardless of how it looks or seems sometimes we have to say to ourselves “I AM WORTHY”!
There are so many times we run behind things and people that are either not meant to be in our lives or choose not to be. In some cases they are meant to be in our lives, however, they often mistreat us or discourage us whether it is intentionally or unintentionally. We must remember that although people may say and do hurtful things to us, these things can only tear us apart if we allow them to. We have the power and we must take it back!
We have the power to keep pressing and keep believing in ourselves even when others do not. We have the power to overcome obstacles regardless of what others say about us. We have the power to live out our dreams and achieve our goals even if some do not believe that we can. We have the power to allow ourselves to be healed and delivered from things that happened in our lives that could have stripped us of our self esteem and knowledge of our worth. We have the power to make a difference in the lives of others and in our lives as well. It is time to take our power back!
Often times we allow rejection and negativity from loved ones define who we feel we are. Those words and actions cut deep and can often have a way of keeping us from living our lives to the fullest. We unintentionally begin to make life decisions based on limitations because we have allowed people to stop us from seeing our greatness. It is time to stop allowing people that power. We can no longer allow the insecurities of others impact us to such a magnitude. There is no need to continue to pursue and chase those who have made a decision to dismiss us because they refuse to recognize our value. We must stop giving them power that they do not deserve! Know your importance! Know your own value! Know your abilities and take your power back!
I realize that I have a bad habit that needs to be broken. The habit that I am speaking of is actually common among many people I know although I don’t know if they realize that it is a habit. Sometimes we become so consumed with the cares of life and we forget to invest in ourselves. We invest in our spouses, our children, jobs, churches, community and etc…but we forget to invest in ourselves.
It is important to devote some time, energy and resources into ourselves. I am in no way speaking against doing things for others; however, we must remember how important it is to do something for ourselves. This is something we must put into practice on a regular basis and not just every now and then.
I want to encourage everyone that has an issue like I do to make it up in your mind that you will strive to change today. If you are putting hours and hours of work in on someone else’s job, try to make time to work on your own business. If you always buy for your family and forget about yourself take a day and buy just for you. If you always sacrifice your rest for others take a day to rest for you. If you are always listening to others to help them with their issues take a day to allow a friend to listen to you. There are so many ways to look out for you, take care of yourself, love yourself, buy for yourself, and take time for yourself. However you need to just ensure that you invest in yourself!